“For me the greatest beauty always lies in the greatest clarity.”
Gotthold Ephraim Lessing
“For me, an area of moral clarity is: you're in front of someone who's suffering and you have the tools at your disposal to alleviate that suffering or even eradicate it, and you act.”
“The beauty is that through disappointment you can gain clarity, and with clarity comes conviction and true originality.”
Does anyone else get lost in their work and forget the mission they started out on? Do the raging waters of work ever swallow you up? I know I sometimes start panting for breath as I drift out to sea, yet there always comes a moment when I reach shore bursting through the water as my clarity of purpose is found. That happened to me the other day after receiving a comment on MY OTHER VOICE's indiegogo page (http://bit.ly/W42mcG).
I’ve been working very hard on building this production company up, meeting with people, talking about the work, editing, rearranging, creating, sharpening, writing, and the list goes on! I was doing so much swimming that I slowly started to lose sight of shore. Two days ago, while I was singing through some of the show, getting frustrated with the way my voice sounded, my phone went off saying I had received a contribution and a comment. The donation came from a woman that I have never met, a complete stranger, and was also one of our largest contributors to date. Not only was I floored that a complete stranger had heard about our project, but when I read her comment I was immediately resuscitated. She wrote, “This contribution is in memory of a Kirby who lost her life, at age 28, to ovarian cancer on January 30, 2012.”
I immediately stopped what I was doing and went numb. Then a surge of emotions rushed through my body… I felt overwhelmed that she lost her fight, grateful to be able to read such a comment, lucky to have made it, and finally empowered knowing that my play could be a voice for others like Kirby. All of this happened in less than a minute as I read the comment over and over again. One thing cancer survivors have to deal with is “survivors guilt.” For some people it can be a very intense feeling, often overwhelming, while for others it barely enters their consciousness. In my own experience my survivor guilt is not as deep as others but still dormant; however, I’m very aware of how blessed I am to still be here. In fact, this blessing is what has always compelled me to give back with my play. Though my journey was hard, it was not nearly as difficult as others, and ultimately I still have a voice to empower, motivate, and inspire.
Comments like these are what keep me on this journey. I’ve never met Kirby but in some ways I have. In some ways, everyone who’s been told they have cancer knows each other on some basic level. These are the people I write for, that don’t have a voice, or don’t know how to use it. That wish they could see beyond another chemo infusion, hoping for tomorrow, and continuing to fight even when there’s no fight left. So Kirby… this one’s for you, I hope you hear our voice.
What have been moments of clarity in your work? I would love to read in the comments!